Remember who you were excited to grow into
It’s about 8:40 something at night, and I’m up in the clouds per usual (literally). We’re cruising at about 41,000 ft. and I’m sitting in my jumpseat in the back of the plane. I looked out of the viewing window and saw the prettiest sunset. I’m always in shock because even though I see this like everyday, it always makes me think about something different. Like yesterday I was thinking about how cold it must be up here, but we don’t ever want to experience that haha… But today, when I looked out, I just had a flashback of like who I was like 5 years ago. Although it may seem like a short while ago, in my mind I felt like it was a lifetime because there were so many things that I thought I should have been doing and I was so excited to get to the point of doing those things .
I was so excited to grow more. Learn more. Experience more. But never in my mind did I think about the imperfections that would have to come along with my perfect vision. I never thought about preparing for this growth. I envisioned perfect friendships, perfect balance, perfect vacations, relationships, finances, all of that. So when those imperfect moments showed up, I almost (well in some cases I did) lost sight of what I wanted the outcome to be. In my reflecting, I’m like in daze looking outside, I remembered exactly how I felt in those moments. I felt defeated, sometimes lonely, misunderstood, judged.. I remember feeling everything. But that is exactly why 5 years later, I am who I am.
I remembered who I was excited to grow into. I wanted to be a woman who has experienced growth, change, pace, skill. I wanted to be able to tell my story. Just because there is a change in your unique pace of life, that does not have to stop your growth. Be exactly who you want to be. Do exactly what it is you want to do. Grow in your faith, in your ability to learn and unlearn at your own pace. You are on no ones time sheet. No one has a track record of your growth but you and God.
-Remember who you were excited to grow into, and don’t lose that memory. Ever.
Yours Purely
