The Soul That Sees Beauty May Sometimes Walk Alone

Be alone. Be so alone that you eventually become an individual. Someone with your own thoughts and deep feelings. This doesn’t mean you need to be single or without friends for a significant amount of time. It means you need to take time for yourself, to do things on your own and sometimes put that over EVERYTHING else . Become someone who is undeniably them-self. Only then will you be ready for whatever life throws at you-

I felt the need to be very transparent with this post. I have realized that it is extremely important and healthy to be vulnerable and open at times. And its okay to share these feelings because you never know how your testimony will help someone. So here goes, as raw as it gets.

I have a huge insecurity of being alone. And not in the spiritual sense but in the physical sense, (if that makes sense). So, I always like to be doing things with other people. I enjoy going out, having company. I never, like ever, like to go to big social events by myself and I always find myself asking someone to do something with me. It’s funny because as I’m thinking about it, if I ask someone to come somewhere with me, and they tell me no I just won’t go at all. But oh have I grown so much these past couple of months.

One morning, I got up and text my cousin to see if she wanted to come to church with me. She was busy and my first thought was okay, hmm, I can just watch it from home. But then God spoke to me and told me to get up, get dressed, and come sit with him. Now let me tell you I would drive 45 minutes to my parents house in a heartbeat to go with my mom, but this was closer and I needed to go. So I went, as he called me to.

Flashback. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to be “present”. And I mean that by being in the moment. I am so quick to pop my headphones in, avoid conversation and eye contact and this is why I like people with me because its a distraction. But anyways, back to church. I got there and as I was walking in I felt this weight off of my shoulders. And I came to the realization that we are never alone. God will walk you through your toughest trials and he will be there through your happiest moments. I also had to realize that you don’t always have to do something with someone to feel full. Sometimes God is seeking this time with you to guide you, heal you, and be in that moment with you. Learning to separate yourself from the physical forms in this world to reconnect to the source is so important.

In order to protect your energy and your peace, you must always be okay with first recognizing that God is with you at all times. In your darkest hours he brings you light at the end of it all. I enjoy my alone time so much now and I am grateful for the peace that it has brought me. The strolls with God in the morning, the meditation, the random talks while you’re by yourself are all needed to fuel your peace. Protect it as it guides you, as he guides you, because he alone is guiding me.

—Yours Purely